I had already planned on Friday that I would write some pending piece of software codes which I had been planning for a couple of weeks. Sitting in front of computer and writing code on Sunday sounds insane, doesn’t it? But I had no other choice.
“Man is a social animal”. This doesn’t fit on me at all. I don’t know why people of ancient times used to pick single or few instances by assuming that it applies on everyone? Anyway, I am not some isolated person at all, its just I failed to find some good gathering for spending some time for myself. Yes I am not a party guy at all and always avoid to go in family marriages and parties that why I always fail to memorize name of people of my family which is not lesser than any galaxy on sky.I have a big dadihaal and nanihal but I know only people of two-tiers only. Tier one consist of my first cousins and khala,phuppi etc etc and 2nd tier is first cousins of my phoppo,kahala etc therefore if I ever go in some party or wedding and some old of my family ask me like “Aur adnan mian pehchana hamain?” then I feel myself the most stupid and dumbest person on earth. I know I don’t do right but..these things are not of my type. My mother and khaala etc used to say that “jab bv aye gi tu sab jaga janay ko ji chahe ga” then they give example of my mamoo who changed so rapidly after their marriages that even Darwin will admit change is more faster than the evolution itself.
Actually problem is that I am not in touch of many of my closed friends. Most of school friends got spoofed like “Gadhay k sir se seeng” and those who are here are very much busy with their wives.Now as a bachelor I feel so weird to bug them frequently as they have their own circle.Some of them have been blessed with children as well so it gets more difficult to do awara gardi like we used to do in school times.
College friends, I had hardly any friend in college because there is no concept to go college regularly in Karachi, especially there was no such thing in 94/95 so I didn’t know names of guys over there. The only reason for going college was Hasan Akbar Kamal and I always tried my best to attend his lecture. Hasan Akbar was a good English teacher, beside that he was a good urdu poet as well and few of his songs were sung by singers like Tina Sani.Khair,I made few friends during NCC training. One I remember was Kashif Ahmed who did his graduation from NED and then left for US.I don’t remember anyone else.Ah NCC,those were days,khair its beyond the topic so quite useless to elaborate it further.
In university we were group of four guys, offcourse one of them was me .I explored many food places during university life. Yes engineering is not like arts but yar ab itni bhe muskil nahi k banda ghoomey nahin. One of my group members Asim got married after an year of graduation, other had flown for Oman. Danish is at Microsoft now and in SMS server group. Rizwan also got married in February of last year and busy in his life and with wife. Therefore I am totally isolated now. I do meet with my ex offices colleagues and recently I went creek-Inn for a dinner with them but such things are very rare.
I had been planning to visit Salman for last 9/10 months but “time he nahi milta”. Oh salman is my old time buddy.Not much old just he was introduced by other friend wasif who passed his electrical engineering from NED and now working at HP. If I remember he is in silicon valley.Wasif is totally transformed into a yank and doesn’t like Karachi anymore thatswhy I don’t like to talk him now.
Khair, I was talking about salman.Salman also got married last year and curse me that I am so bad that I didn’t give any party to the newly wed couple. How moron I am. Salman literally helped me a lot during studies, though we were in different varsities but our field was similar. Salman was good in hardware and programming and so many times I used to call him after 11:00 PM night and most of time his response was positive. I used to live in Nazimabad no: 1. At that time me and salman often used to go Agha Juice corner or for Chicken Corn soup near Al-hasan.
Things are very changed now even I find so many changes in me and many of then are seamless that I never felt them but they exist. There was a time when I often used to watch few programs on TV but curse upon Ekta Kapoor and her family that they produced such horrible and insane TV programs that my mother never allowed me to change the channel between 8 and 10 pm. Therefore, I had no choice other than giving up. Now even if I try to watch movie or program, I get bored. Yes I still watch sports like cricket, wrestling etc but there is no such passion or determination to watch them anyway. Change of priorities I must say hmmm. But I am planning to buy Chinese device for my computer so that I can watch World cup 2007 cricket matches easily and freely in my own room.
I also bought few books from urdu bazaar ,couldn’t finish them all, Qudrat Ullah Shahab’s Maa Ji has yet to finished. I don’t know why but there is something which irk me in a way that I don’t consider it harmful but its definitely affecting on my personality. What is that I don’t know at all. May be I have given so much importance to my priorities that I have forgotten myself. That’s all I have figure out yet. Anyway,self revealing is very lame in my sight but I am still doing it.Noman thinks that whatever he writes is not public therefore he doesn’t like to reveal his identity.I disagree with it because when you dont want to tell then why are you telling indirectly?You might be hiding your name etc but you are still unveiling your personality which matters most.Khair uski thinking not mine.Nobody gives a damn about other neither I do.
Its 1:40AM now and I am yawning big time, so lazy to shave right now so I would prefer to shave my face early morning. Oh by the way I forgot to tel you that I didn’t write a single piece of code at all. Just wasted another day in useless things.
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